Self Lovin with Aunty Robin
Join your eccentric Aunty Robin for this monthly podcast In which we will embark on what is called the Hero's Journey, to discover our true authentic self. For this revolution we are going to look at our belief systems, how we respond to things in our lives, learn how to control our emotions, learn how to heal our past trauma, connect back to your authentic self, and learn how to listen to your own inner voice instead of others. We will be utilizing a variety of methods based in Psychology, Cognitive Behavior therapies, Somatic exercises, Breathwork, various meditation, as well as a pinch of spirituality, learning what brings us joy, how to use your emotions as a tool for a better understanding of ourselves.
I am doing this podcast cause this last election I watched as the political parties of this country used our anger and frustration at the world in order to gain power. As a proud card carrying member of Gen X, I can tell you this all started when we were kids and has only gotten worse over the last 50 years. The current administration has several plans that they want to force through during their term. But every force has to deal with counter-force. Yet, Power, TRUE POWER is unmovable and is an ever fixed mark that looks on tempests. Well the tempest lands Jan. 20th, and they want to keep us divided and angry so we don't rise up. But I have radical, bat-shit crazy, revolutionary idea that can change with world, and it starts with you. We have forgotten how to live OUR lives for ourself, and instead have succumbed to programing, ideal and traditions that have been passed down to from previous generations. The true revolution this time needs to start from with in each one of us. We must break from the past programing, and ideals that have been passed on to us. Cause the real reason we are angry is because we no longer believe or want the same things as the Boomer and generations before. It is not who WE are. But WE need to know WHO we are in order to CREATE a new future that Gen X, Millennials, Gen Z, and Gen Alpha and every generation after us can thrive in. This is the last time the Boomers will be in charge, giving us 4 years to figure out what we want for our future. But before we do that. We need to clear out the bullshit programing from the world, our families, our friends, our work. The founding fathers original motto for the United States is a Latin phrase E Pluribus Unum or Out of the Many, One. And that is what I ask of all of you. We need to become ONE, but one with ourselves first. We need to see who are we and what do we believe in, we need to develop radical self love for ourselves, we need to clear out the programing that previous generations have put upon us, to see what we believe in, and to create something that has never done before. So we need to heal ourselves. So We The People, the many, can become one. So lets start a revolution and become one with ourselves. You ready my lil punks?
Self Lovin with Aunty Robin
Could a Golden Vagina Actually Save the World (Kind of)
The headlines felt relentless, the feed louder than my own thoughts—so I grabbed a paintbrush, hit record, and chose a different kind of response. What followed was part art session, part reckoning: we talk about gun violence and responsibility, the way doomscrolling hijacks our nervous systems, and why joy might be the most subversive habit we can practice right now. I share how a long-overdue painting became a promise kept, how adult playtime repairs the roots that stress frays, and why making something—anything—can be a daily vote for your own agency.
We also open the door to ritual and curiosity. From beginner witchcraft and herbology to chakras, Reiki, and ancestral nudges toward Scotland, I trace how simple practices can pull us out of panic and back into presence. We question edited narratives—comparing the heft of old Bibles to slim modern versions—and land on a radical, practical reading: sacred texts should make us better humans, not meaner ones. If your beliefs don’t widen your compassion, it’s time to revise your practice, not your empathy. Along the way, we laugh about cringe as a birthplace of artistry, tell stories about cheesy cult classics like They Live, and turn a glitter-smeared canvas into proof that joy and grief can sit at the same table.
If you’ve felt stuck in survival mode, this conversation is your invitation to schedule fun, retrain brutal self-talk, and build community that meets honesty with honesty. Come for the catharsis, stay for the small, repeatable moves: five minutes of reading myth, a messy sketch, a quiet breath before the next scroll. Hit play, then share one tiny joy you’ll claim today. And if this resonated, subscribe, leave a review, and pass it to a friend who could use a little light.
Sometimes you gotta be adult in the room to say something. Silence = Death.
Warning. You are about to watch a visual podcast. You have been warned. You know, when you forget about copyright laws, but you already shot and edited everything and put it all together in a nice little package. And you know that you have to fix that before you release it. First thing that you're gonna do is you're gonna give yourself a little grace, a little forgiveness, because you know you're dusting off some skills. You're a little rusty, but that's okay. We're relearning, we're learning through the process here. The second thing that you're gonna do is you're gonna do a huge pivot. Okay. Huge pivot. Now, this pivot is probably gonna include some royalty-free music, but I may also do something completely random and different and make a musical masterpiece just out of hearts. I don't know what I'm gonna do yet. So tune in this week and find out what the fuck it is I'm gonna do. Hi-ho! Kermit the Frog here. Come with me and you'll be in a world of pure imagination And we're sitting just thinking about expectations. Hello guys, it's your Auntie Robin here. As you can see, I am choosing to chew bubblegum and kick ass today. I am all out of bubblegum and I am also all out of ass. Just letting you know. But honestly, if you want to see a great movie, you really should check out They Live by John Carpenter because it is a fucking masterpiece. It is a classic, it is cheese, amplified, amplified, and worthy of being watched. And I just want to let you know the this the special effects are a little cheesy, but at the time, though, they were top in their class during the day. So I just want to remind you of that. So enjoy that. It's very relevant to now with consumerism and capitalism just through the roof. Uh, it might be pretty relevant. And also, Roddy Rowdy Piper, there's a fight sequence in there. It is just truly the best fight sequence I think I have ever seen. It is just literally two guys slugging it out, and I it really actually looks like what a real fight is. Just two guys just slugging it out, just bleeding their own lid, and it's quite hilarious. So, too enthusiastic thumbs up. If you like it, great. Check it out. If anything, you'll get some amusement out of it. Now, this morning, I have unintentionally doom scrolled, and my brain, it's a little fucked up right now. I'm not gonna lie. Today, I generally will never retell you what days I'm recording this because there's no point. But first off, it's September 11th. So we've got that going on. And then yesterday, we had two extremely violent things that have happened in the United States, in which we had a school shooting in Evergreen, Colorado, and then also Charlie Kirk being basically shot, uh, which was very violent. I didn't need to see that. I really shouldn't have seen that. I wish I could erase that from my mind, to be honest with you. That was horrible. And I am not a fan of the man by any means or stretch of the imagination. But that was a little extreme. I'm just saying, what the fuck is wrong with us, America? I mean, honestly, what the fuck is wrong with us? I we keep going through these same cycles over and over and over again, and nothing changes. And after healing yourself, you kind of notice you have these patterns of behavior within you that keep repeating itself until you learned your lesson, and then you can move on. Now, we have not done that necessarily as a society, and maybe we should, but I also understand something else is that I can't control other people, you can't control other people, nobody can control anybody else. We have we were given free will by God, okay? And it's amazing. Big fan of free will, huge fan, love it. But what is it gonna take to put some sensible gun laws in place? I'm sure if I could ask Charlie, actually, I think I could. Hold on one second. Okay. Um, I'm only doing this because my ancestors' spirit guides have been encouraging me lately uh to embrace my healing and magic uh that I have within me. Um and also I have had several past lives in which I was a healer, in which I was prosecuted, um, basically burnt at the stake, um, drowned. Um yeah, I was part of the witch trials. Okay. I was one of those women uh that you thought you burned and came back. But I am supposed to play around with witchcraft and to play around, and I'm just starting off with basic stuff. I actually am not really too into the witchcraft and the woo-woo, but I'm starting off with the basics. We're starting with herbology. I got my herbology book back here. I also have my rune book, as well as, you know, the Akasha Records and a little Scotland because my ancestors and stuff want me to go back to the motherland, is what they're telling me. So I may be making a journey to Scotland and the motherland and see what happens there. Um, but I also have these other books because I love reading and I don't always have necessarily a lot of time. And these are mythology and folklore books, basically about Native Americans, Aztecs, Scottish, Egyptian, Japanese, myth, and legends. Um, but they're really short stories, and so I can just pull one of those books anywhere from five to thirty pages, and then I set it down and I've done my reading for the day. Um, sometimes it's just the small little things that we can do um that make the biggest difference to filling up our cup, especially when things get overwhelmed and how they are right now, for me at least. I'm very overwhelmed. And so today I have my paints in front of me. I have some tasty little watercolors here, some tasty little brushes, and I'm gonna be making some art while I'm doing my podcast. I'm going to be talking about a variety of different things, but back to the violence and the shooting here in America. I I want to ask a simple question. Does Charlie Kirk Kirk would he change his mind today? Seeing as Witchie is no longer with us and he has been a victim of gun violence. Do you still feel the same way about the Second Amendment? Shall we ask? I'm going to use these divination rods, okay? Because I cannot control these things. And basically they are copper. You just kind of hold them and you ask some questions. Okay? So, hey, can you show me what a yes looks like? Can you guys show me what a no looks like? Okay. So that's our yes or no. So if it crosses, it's a yes. If it expands out, it's a no. Okay. So is my name Robin? Do I go by Auntie Robin? Okay. Uh is my name Bob. Okay. So after the gun violence of yesterday, does Charlie Kirk change his mind on the Second Amendment and does he support it now? Please note that that is a no. So Charlie Kirk does not support the Second Amendment now that he has been shot. That is a Yes. I do not support the Second Amendment. So Charlie Kirk does not support the Second Amendment now that he has been unalived. Correct. Okay. Thank you. What is it going to take other than your own that it happens to you? What is it gonna take? What is it gonna take beyond it happening to you, America? It's a question I'd like to ask you. What is it going to take? I'm asking my gun owners because this is really down to you. And I understand the reason why our founding fathers put that in because they believed that tyranny can happen at any point in time within life, and you should be able to defend yourself. Things should not be banned. But the thing also is that they did not see the vast expanse of the destruction that we have put upon ourselves. We've done it to ourselves. We created this. They could not even fathom the nuclear bomb that we came up with, the weapons of mass destruction that we have created in this world. They did not have an inkling or idea of any of that. It is our responsibility as citizens to ensure the safety of our fellow countrymen. It is up to us. Sometimes you really do just need to turn that beat around. And I know that that seems like the most awkward and weird, bizarre thing to actually do, but honestly, when you are faced with so much, and I do mean so much tragedy and bullshit and constant piling on of all the negative crap. You have to remember what it is in life that you're doing, and sometimes you have to celebrate life. And honestly, I'm challenging some shamanic shaumatic practices. Yeah, I'm learning to talk. Um I'm putting some of those to the test because these are really depressing times. I don't know if you've gotten that memo, but it's a shit show out there, okay? I think I've just proved that in my opening. Sometimes we gotta let it out. We got to release all this anger and this frustration, and sometimes just doing that is an act of singing, it's an act of dancing, it's an act of creating and and making art, okay? Sometimes it's just these little things that make the world of difference that you don't think makes a world of difference. But sometimes a golden vagina is gonna save the world. Okay? Sometimes a golden vagina will save the world. It may not be today, just letting you know. But god damn. Now, I'm changing the format a little bit, if you haven't noticed. Um, I can't teach you guys to love yourself. There's there's no way that I can. I I love myself, but you're gonna have to love yourself, and I can't make that happen for you. I can't wave my little magic disco ball pen and say, you love yourself. Congratulations. Okay, that's not how it works. But the first thing that you have to do is stop talking shit about yourself. It's the hardest thing. It took me months to figure out how to do that, and it was repetition and repetition, and oh my dear God, I wanted to kill somebody by the end of that time period. Because what I did is as soon as that came out of my mouth and I heard it, I had to say three things positive about myself, and I had to backtrack my comment and turn it into a positive, and then I had to say two more things on top of that that are better. Yeah, that got tiring after a while because I talked a lot of shit about myself that I didn't even realize that I was doing. And I think you do it too. I think you'd be surprised. I no longer can say I'm I can't even I can't. I can't, I can't say it. I can't even say it anymore. I can't say Oh god, I can't. The words will not come out of my mouth anymore. I it's too much. It's too much. But the thing is, is that stop it. Just be nice to yourself. Why can't you just be nice to yourself? And that's that's the thing. That's the thing that I realized. It isn't about forgiving everybody else who like insulted me or called me names or made fun of me when I was a kid, or even as an adult, because it all started when I was four. And what ended up happening is I ended up learning that if I make fun of myself before they make fun of me, then they can't hurt me because I'm doing it to myself. That was my logic. How fucked up is that as a kid? But but you know, it insulated me. And then I started gaining weight, and now I'm actually loving myself and I'm actually losing weight. It's so fucking bizarre. So bizarre. But today I am working on a painting for a friend because I want to be a person whose word is their bond, essentially. And I have been, I told this person that I would make them a piece of art, and I did make them a piece of art. I did, I did, I did. But I made a piece of jewelry and I told them that I was gonna make a painting, but I never got around to making the painting. Well, I'm getting around to the painting now, like four, three, five, six years later, maybe. And I'm starting to do that now. And I'm actually enjoying it. But you have to do stuff for yourself, and that is how you enjoy life. Because another thing that I I doom-scrolled this morning is how my millennial generation is dying off quicker than any other generation. It's kind of sad, but I get it, because the world she is not kind out there. We have basically gone from COVID, okay, in which we were insulated from everybody, so much death, so much despair, so much destruction. It it was horrible. And I don't think that we realized how much that actually probably fucked us up. That was a traumatic experience, guys. That was trauma. Welcome to trauma. The whole entire world experienced it. The whole world experienced it. And we were made to go back to work, at least in America, I can't speak for the rest of the world. But we were made to go back to work as if nothing happened. Nothing happened. Millions of people didn't die, just die. People didn't lose their their businesses, people didn't like lose their income, people didn't lose their housing, people didn't lose their livelihoods, their lives, and we were just expected to just go back to work as if nothing happened. And you wonder why we aren't mentally doing okay right now? Hmm Gee Maybe show some fucking compassion. Maybe show some goddamn sympathy every once in a while. But there's only so much that we can do. Now, this painting that I am working on is for a friend who actually just started doing like Reiki healing and stuff like that. And so that's basically where you're learning about the chakra systems within the body, and it's an amazing, amazing healing. They call it a massage technique, but I don't to me it's really more of energy work than it is necessarily of uh massage. So you're dealing more with the energetic body system and making sure that each one of the chakras from like the root, the sacral, the solar plexus, the heart, the throat, the third eye, and the crown, and each one has a color representation, and each one, you know, uh symbolizes different things, like our root chakra is like our survival mode, and that, my friends, has been really taxed lately and is is a little little tired, she's a little tired, our root chakra, because we have been in survival mode for far too long, my friends. Um, because pretty much all of this shit has started, I would say, when I was in high school is when all this shit started. And it's just gotten progressively worse and worse and worse. You know, you needed that extra job, now you need two, now you need three, now you you almost need like four. It's like, guys, we can't keep doing this to ourselves. We can't. There, there, there really is no way, reason, or behind doing this. But here we are doing it. And I don't know who came up with this idea, but I would really like to have a talk with them. Because um, I don't like your memo. I don't think the world likes your memo. And I would like to stop and get off that train if I can. Because this train is just gonna keep on going until we fall off the rails. And I don't know about you, but I'd like to do that before we fall off the rails. If at all humanly possible.
unknown:That would be great.
SPEAKER_00:Alright. Well, as you can see, now I have a shiny glittering asshole. And we've just started. Alright. I'm gonna let this dry here a little bit. And I'm just gonna tell you, it is small things that add up over time that bring us joy. And maybe the revolutionary act in all of this from the violence of yesterday is to actually live in our joy. And maybe we need to do that more. So grab yourself a fucking book and start reading. Grab yourself some pen and paper and start drawing. Take to the camera. Take to just take to the hairbrush. Take it to the brush if you want to. And just sing it out, motherfuckers.
unknown:Yeah.
SPEAKER_00:Sing it out. Maybe you need to dance it out. That's what I'm gonna do today. I'm gonna dance some shit out. So be prepared, my friends. Be prepared. And if you think it's cringe, it 100% is. It 100% is cringe. And you want to know something? Cringe is where you find your artistry. Cringe is where artistry comes from. It is through the cringe that you end up finding yourself. You find your heart, you find your soul, you find that little piece of happiness that somebody cannot take away. And it is there, there, that you find happiness and doing something for yourself. Our capitalist out-of-control oligarchy political situationship doesn't give a shit about your feelings. It never will. So you have to take control of that. And that is what I am encouraging you to do today. Take control of your own motherfucking happiness. And if that includes making a fucking glittery yellow asshole, then that's what it does. Shine that asshole. Just shine it. Cause right now all I gotta say is carry on my wayward song. There'll be peace when you are done. Lay your weary head to rest don't you cry no more Ow So here I am at fifty three, watching the world burn and trying to have a little fun. That really doesn't make any sense But does anything make sense? I figure what the fuck? What could go wrong? I enjoy myself a little bit while the world is kind of crashing around me. I think we could all use a little fun. Let's schedule some fun. But do I remember how to have fun? Do I remember what joy looks like? Do I remember what happiness is? What is happiness? Do you know what that is? It's been a long time since I've seen that, so I'm hoping you guys can help me out with what that looks like. But you can't thrive when you're just surviving. And I I don't know about the rest of the world, but in America right now, we are just surviving. We're just surviving to get by. And that is, unfortunately, guys, by design, they're doing that on purpose. Because if we do not thrive, then we can't fight them because we're just trying to survive and get by. So we're not really going to complain too much if we aren't thriving. Whereas if we're thriving, we have more to lose. So we'll end up fighting more for those things. Shit. Did I just come up with a revolution? Is a revolution to have fun? Kick it. Oh God. But maybe it is to have more fun. Because if you think about it, like I remember seeing a video of one of the protests in DC, and there was a row of like Proud Boys, a row of cops, and then other protesters. And the thing is, is that things were getting tense. I mean, like, there they was about ready to we're ready to bust knuckles at some point here because they kept getting closer and closer and closer. And you want to know what somebody did? They pulled out a fucking mini tuba and started playing. Everything changed. Lighted the fuck up. They were both dancing then at that point. They were just like, oh yeah, oh yeah. Get the Jamma, get the Jamma. Maybe this is the revolution that we're looking for. It seems really popped. But maybe we're supposed to have fun. Maybe we're supposed to find joy and happiness and caring within our communities and within our friend groups. And if you don't feel like you have a friend group, then ask yourself if you're being authentically you to those people. And if you're not being authentically you towards those people, or they're not being authentically them towards you, then maybe they weren't your friends in the first place. Because not everybody on this planet is supposed to like you. I know that that sounds like bear with me here. Not everyone on the planet is supposed to like you. I'm just throwing that one out there. I don't think everybody realizes that. That not everyone is going to like you. And it's okay. It is okay that people do not like you because they are probably not your people to begin with in the first place. The people who will get you are gonna get you. And the people who aren't, then you have to figure out am I in the wrong place? Maybe I need to move somewhere else to find my people. And I'm not in the right place to find those connections that connect with me. But you have to give up something, you have to give up that old location, you gotta give up that old life. I have given up family, I have given up my marriage, I have given up my house to find myself. And I'm realizing now that after doing all of that, that Oklahoma may not be where I need to be right now. That I need I may need to be somewhere else. I don't know where that is. Maybe it's Scotland, maybe it's Edinburgh, maybe it's somewhere else in the United States, maybe it's in a different country. But you have to figure that out for you. But just remember, it's gonna cost you your old life in order to get a new one, and you've got to be willing to sacrifice all of that for that reason, and that's why a lot of people don't do this, they don't go through all of this to have a new life, but I'm becoming something different, and I don't know what exactly it is that I am becoming, but if you have watched or heard my podcast from nine months ago to now, it's vastly different. I'm actually having some fun now. I'm actually finding some enjoyment in this. I'm not dreading it as much. I'm actually enjoying coming on here and shooting the shit with you like this because I'm doing the things that I love to do, and my the things that I love to do are all around me. All around me. And art can be done anywhere in any different form. It doesn't have to be drawing, it doesn't have to be photography, it it doesn't have to be painting, it could be singing, it could be dancing, it could be skateboarding, it could be playing a sport, it could be anything that you want it to be. That you find genuine joy in, and that's what I'm encouraging you to please find. Please find your joy. I'm begging you, it's time to find your joy. We've had enough of the bullshit. Find your fucking joy and find it right now. I'm please find your joy. Because we need playtime as adults. And I don't think that we've realized that. Well, I know I haven't realized that until now, is that adults need playtime too. We need to go play. Have you played? Maybe you should. Go play with your kids. Go climb on that jungle gym. Act like a complete fucking idiot. Go swing on that swing set. Do it. Do it for you. Don't do it for your kids. If they want to join, then fine, they can join. But do something specifically for you. Now I don't know what's gonna happen next. I really truly don't. Let me get my paint brush here before it ruins my corpse. But as we're all becoming, why don't you just come with me? And we'll be in a world of pure imagination and it will defy expectations. Now, I kind of thought that this podcast was actually for you to teach you how to love yourself, but I'm kind of realizing now I don't think that's the case. I think it's more about me trying to love myself and trying to show you what that looks like. It doesn't make any sense to me either, but we're gonna go with that. I mean, sometimes you just need to slow down your life and and remember to just enjoy yourself. Cause we have to have figure out what's what's worth fighting for right now. It's it it's it's not worth fighting for gun rights right now. It's not worth fighting for I feel like I'm just fighting for the right to live and to live happily. That's that's what I feel like the right is what I'm fighting for right now. And maybe if each one of us is fighting for our right to be happy, maybe that oh wow. That is kind of a revolution, isn't it? Well shit. Alright, everybody. Come on, let's get happy. Come on, let's partridge family this shit. Come on, world, it's a song that was singin'. Come on, get happy. But claim and choose your art, your dance, your song. Claim it because this is what it sounds like. It sounds like freedom. That's what that sounds like to me. Is that maybe by choosing the fun, choosing the best way to live, and to be the best person that you can be in the now that that's what to be the best version of us that we can be. And that isn't gonna happen. Being depressed, having anxiety, feeling the weight of the entire world on us. In fact, it's really more about filling our cup and finding our joy, and that is the revolution that we need to take place, okay? I think I've said that enough this episode. But as a kid and during this class, I realized that my parents um kind of scared the shit out of me at one point in time because as a kid I could watch TV in my bed. So I I could kind of see the TV, but I could mostly hear it. And I could kind of make out what it was on the TV, um, but not always, because it just depended on the angle and the light and the way everything reflected on whether or not I could see the actual TV, but I could definitely hear it. And one night I was watching, they were watching one flew over at the cuckoo's nest, and I'm just like, oh, hey, yeah, that was a lot. I probably shouldn't have been sitting there watching that, but I did. And then like a couple weeks later, they told me that I needed to shut the fuck up about um about my past lives, and that if I don't watch my mouth, that uh somehow somebody is going to take it the wrong way, and that they're going to put me into an insane asylum. Now, they did not directly threaten me with that of sending me to the insane asylum, but that is what I took as a kid. Okay. I took that as a threat against me and that they were going to do this. It scared the shit out of me. Now, also at the time, I asked if I could go talk to a Native American medicine person. Because that was the question I asked. And that was the response I got. But the reason why I asked to see a Native American medicine person is because the Native Americans believe that people who could talk to their ancestors, who remembered their past lives, were actually very spiritual people and needed extra care and extra sense, they were extra sensitive, and that they needed to be nurtured a little bit more in order to develop those gifts. And they considered them gifts, as opposed to my parents, which they thought acted and treated me more like it was a curse. So I've had to unpack all of that in the past three years, and it was a lot. It's a lot to have to unpack. But seriously, it was terrifying being told that my parents wanted to throw me into insane. That that did a number on me. More than what they thought. In fact, I should have just stuck with Conan the Barbarian. My dad loved Conan the Barbarian, and every time it was on, he would watch that. So what would end up happening is that I would end up watching it through the through the hallway there. And he would hear me giggling. And once my mom went to bed, he's just like, just get out here. So I would sit there and watch Saturday Night Live with my dad. Um, we watched Conan the Barbarian when it was on TV, so it was heavily edited for content. I trust me on that one. That's why when we actually rented the DVD one time, and all of a sudden there's Arnold is having sex with some witch woman in her hut with this fire going on, and then there's the entire sex pit orgy scene. I'm just like, what the fuck is this? Where did this come from? Like, deja vu here. I'm like, what movie is this? I don't remember any of this happening. And it kind of got me thinking, like, if you look at like, talk about edited for content. If you look at your Bible, and please take your time, go find your Bible, count how many pages are in it. I really want you to do this, okay? So take your Bible, see how many pages are in it. I want you to then look up the Trump Bible, and I know that that is only the New Testament. Okay. Um, take a look at that New Testament. Look at the page count on that shit. Okay. Then look at the page count on your New Testament. Now I want you to find a Bible from 1920s or earlier. I want you to look up the page count on that. Because you want to know something? Those Bibles, they are fick. Fick. Those Bibles are fake. And I like even mine from the 80s is smaller than that. And then you look at like the Trump Bible, and it's like, I'm like, that is not the same, my friends. You have taken some shit out. Okay? These are not the same. And this is where I think a lot of people have a problem with religion. Bear with me here, because I think religion is great. Honestly, I am a full supporter of religion as long as you are following it and it makes you the best version of you that you can be. If it is not making the best version of you, then you might want to reconsider it. That's all I'm saying. All I'm saying. Just think about that. But there is a vast difference between yesteryear's Bible and today's Bible. And this is where I have a lot of problems with the Christian faith, is because it has been edited and pared down, and I don't like this part, so I'm going to take that out. And then it just doesn't exist, and I can say that this is what really honestly what it means. But I took out the part that counterdicts that. This is where we are at right now is fine-tuning a religion, a religious text that should just be. It should just be what it is. Okay, and God's word came through them and was written out. Now, mediums can do the exact same thing with your spirit guides and your ancestors. Sometimes there's, I don't know, some people consider them angels. There's angels, there's spirit guides, there's many different things that you can talk and commune to, but you can write this stuff down. And this is kind of in part of the process of what I'm I'm learning to do right now is trying to figure out were these really prophets of God? I kind of wonder that. Well, actually. What is the question that I'm asking? Were those who wrote the humans that wrote the Bible, were they doing basically being like mediums and divine interpretation? Was that directly from God? Was that directly from angels? And the angels instructed humans on what to write? Was this for purposes of Sorry, I'm just trying to figure out how to phrase this. Was this for purposes of guiding us to be better human beings? Or are all religions guides to being better human beings? Okay, not all religions. Okay. Is Christianity let's just get specific. Is Christianity US evangelical Christianity here to try and better human beings? That's all. They just want us to be better human beings. It it has nothing to do with Does it have anything to do with God? Is this more of an instruction manual on is the Bible more of an instruction manual on how to be a better human being? Is it to show God's will? Well fuck me. I was not expecting that one. I am generally surprised right now. I'm sorry, I I I did not plan this one out. Uh the this is to me. I I'm I'm kind of dumbfounded that the Bible is really just to learn how to be a better human being Just a craft. Okay. It has nothing to do about God's will. Just to be a better human being. Alright guys, you heard it here first. The Bible is here to be a better human being. That's what God wants for us. Does God want us to be just better human beings? Does he want us to hate on each other? So maybe we should stop that. You heard it here first, guys. You heard it here first. So anyway, check out your Bible. Check out how many pages it has. Because you will be surprised by the flukeness of the old Bibles compared to the new. It is huge. So these new interpretations are just kind of tweaking things. So let's twerk some things, shall we? Just keeping on working. Just picking out some pines. Trying to find the right color. Cause that's what we love it. He let color. We like to feel it. We like to see it. So now as a kid, I was given like the wildest imagination. I mean, I came up with some of the wildest shit when I was a kid. And like drawing it out, putting it out, it was so much fun. But it was also kind of frustrating because as a kid, I wanted to make these things that I was given all these ideas. And I'm just kind of like, how can I do this? And I didn't know how to do this. And but now I realize, well, I was just a kid. I didn't have the money, the resources, um, or really, honestly, anyone to believe me on any of these ideas. And it kind of got stuck, it got stifled. And I had to work through all of that, like mentally over the past three years. This is some of the shit that I have been working on getting rid of in this little old noggin of mine. But I kind of felt like honestly, I was in spiritual witness protection program. It's just kind of like, oh, we can't have you shine too brightly on that. Let's dim it down just a little bit. Like, oh, nope, nope, nope, nope, nope, nope. You like acting? You're really pretty good at it, kid, but nope, nope, nope, nope, nope, not right now. Not right now. Oh, you like you like fashion, you like, you like how you look? Okay, yeah. No, no, we're just gonna have people make fun of you right now. Okay, okay, okay. And that was my life growing up as a kid. So I've had to literally work through all of this bullshit that has been piling up in my head that other people have put in there, okay? And also I have put in there. And I've had to clear that out. But going through that and having as many dark nights of the soul as I have had has been a lot. Okay. Now, you can be a phoenix rising from the ashes, but it doesn't necessarily make it any easier. Okay, it just doesn't. Oh, that's a pretty color. Um, I like that. But even being a phoenix rising from the ashes and working through those dark nights of the soul, what it really comes down to is guilt and shame. And how you get guilt and shame is basically from your seven deadly sins, your greed. So what you are hanging on to, what what is your what is it that you're trying to hoard, essentially, or your envy and jealousy, okay? Um, and social media loves the seven deadly sins. I mean, it really just brings all of that out because you're jealous of other people's lives, you're jealous of what other people are doing, um, it showcases your greed sometimes. It showcases either how much you're not taking care of yourself or how much you are taking care of yourself, you know, which would basically be sloth. Um greed is the need of possessing things, um, gluttony taking things basically to the extreme is basically what I think gluttony is. And then like lust basically craving pleasure. Now, I I I know that I'm saying that we should have fun. It that doesn't necessarily mean a hedonistic experience right now. I'm not I'm not even endorsing that. But but if you oh good for you. I wish you the best. Let's not take it to those extremes. Okay, let's not just completely go in the other direction here. Because we need to be led more with our hearts and not necessarily our logic on this. No that that sounds really weird, but follow me along. When you are following more of your heart, you're a little bit more forgiving, compassionate, and caring towards other people, but really what you need is to have compassion and care and giving for yourself. Because when you're dealing with your shadows, your sins, if you will, and basically to a larger extent, I guess it's really more of your guilt and shame. You have to forgive yourself and let that guilt and shame go, is what it comes down to. Because that is where the danger is, is when you fall into victimhood. And honey, I am not in my villain era because I am holding up a mirror, you know, saying shiny green asshole. Uh what I'm really saying is is that just because I'm being a mirror to you, and you're seeing that I'm advocating for fun in the midst of the downfall of the United States, that I am being in my villain era, but I am not being in my villain era because villains rely on victimhood. No, honey, I am in my savage era, okay? Savage. Because I have so many fucks to give that I have extra. Okay? So I am giving forth my fucks. Are you ready for that? I don't think you are. I don't think anybody is. But I care too much about everything, and that that kind of is my problem. I care too much, honestly, and that is not a weakness. That is not something to ever be called weak for. Because I've been in through the darkest parts of me, and I still found love there. Even in the dark parts, and you can do that too, but you've got to go through it, and I recommend completely going through it because it is not fun going partway through and then being stuck. You've got to continue, you've got to move forward, you've got to push, not too hard, mind you, but you do got to push yourself out of that fear of whatever your fear is. Mine is a little bit of rejection, but also a little bit of success. What if I find those things? What if that what if everything works out for me? I'm just becoming right now. I I'm still trying to figure myself out and where I am in the whole scheme of things within the world. Okay. I'm still trying to figure that out. I don't know if I will ever figure it out. I hope I do. But if I don't, that is also okay. But what it ultimately comes down to is that these times they are dark. And sometimes you need to be the littlest little light. And that is what I am. I am just a teeny tiny little light that you guys have been trying to blow out for like 53 years. I'm not going away anytime real soon. And somebody who bronze so bright does not should not burn out twice as fast. And I can prove that to you, and will prove that to you with my life the way it becomes from here on out. You are gonna see what the fuck. I'm not joking. You're gonna ask yourself, how in the fuck did she do this? Because I don't know how the fuck I am doing this. I really truly don't. But come along for the journey, come along for the ride because she's gonna be interesting, if nothing else. She is going to be interesting. So don't fit into a box, have some fucking fun, and get out there and enjoy your motherfucking life. Okay. I'll see you next time. But one more thing. Drop the needle.
